Thank you so much for sharing! I feel for you, brother. You are not alone. Recovery work early on can definitely be exhausting work, it’s all about learning how to incorporate what you can into your daily routine while not stretching yourself too thin. With time it becomes more manageable and we are able to give ourselves grace if we feel like we haven’t gotten the recovery “gold star” for that day. I can really relate to that whole idea of “not working hard enough”, and that’s got to be especially tough if that’s coming from those around you, or if that’s how they are making you feel. Easy does it, this is new and not easy work for us or those around us. Keep doing what you can, it is enough and you are enough! Keep showing up for yourself and the inner child inside of you, your growth will show and it will help ease their fears. Keep talking about it, brother and keep coming back, it works if you work it, and man you are worth it! Love, Big Panda